I hate Monday's

Monday's suck!!!!! I am going to take a moment and whine about how Monday's suck. Having to get up at 4 a.m. to get to work by 5:30 a.m. is just one of the many reason why a Monday would suck. I am by nature not a morning person and I do not play well with others who think they are. My brain honestly does not function until 9 a.m. and most people understand to leave me alone until 9 a.m. So this being one of my open shifts I did not sleep at all for the fear of over sleeping and hitting snooze on the many alarms on my phone. Also dealing with customers at this dreaded hour is hard because the only people that shop this early are morning people ( there should be a separate country for these people). Since I have this out of my system and will have to repeat this routine tomorrow cause I must have made someone mad to punish me with two opening shifts in a row this ends my rant on Mondays.

So I decided that today since it is already dark outside that I would fix dinner for my demons and treat them to nachos. Nachos are definitely not on my diet to get thin menu but they sounded good and I used multi-gran tortilla chips and extra lean hamburger. I am making plans on going ice skating with my nieces so that way I do not embarrass myself to bad. I will have one of them take a video of me hopefully standing up straight and actually skating in the event that this is not what happens then I will be either hugging the wall or falling flat on my face either way I hope to make someone smile and giggle.

For tonight fun and games I have decided to try my hand at some basic yoga. LOL I know what your thinking that doesn't sound like fun. I am trying to make myself believe that I am graceful and lean. Which in case I will fall flat on my face and will pick up my book that I am currently reading ( The Hobbit) and will plan on something more exciting tomorrow.

Candi

Dancing Like No One is Watching

Lazy days Sundays are the best especially when you are off from work. So what did I do today I baked cookies and danced with my dogs. The dogs thought I completely lost my mind but it was fun. I have been thinking that I want to try ice skating and we have a new rink that opened up not to far away from where I live. This is a little scary for me since I have not skated but a couple times when I was a teenager. I really want to try it cause it sounds like fun. I weighed myself and I weighed 179.6 not as bad as last week. Since I work a very early shift I will have to put the fun for the evening pretty sure the boss does not approve of fun. LOL

Candi

Frustrated!!! I want to have fun again!

As I begin to gather my thoughts I can only express myself as being really pissed off. I don't know how fair it is to be in my 40's and being diagnosed with being diabetic and being over weight. I can only imagine what people are thinking when they read that. Its no big deal just eat healthy, watch your carbs and workout. I wish it was that easy. For years I have worked out and watch what I eat. I hate going to the gym, I hate to tell people I'm sorry I can't eat that sweet I'm still trying to drop that extra 20 pounds that I have been carrying around for the past three years. I have switched my diet and my family is very supportive but my depression and anxiety just has increased as my waist line increases. I am saying I'm done with it all..... I'm going to ditch the gym and if I want a cookie (not the whole bag) then dammit I'm going to eat a cookie. I want to have fun again like I did when I was kid and played outside. I never worried about my weight cause I was having fun and played. So that is what I am going to do again. This is early for a New Year's resolution but here is mine. I am going to rediscover my child hood. I am not going to stress over every bite of food that I put in my mouth. I am going to start living again. I want to follow my dreams, I am not afraid to post my weight and height on here which is 181 pounds and 5'6" and I am 42 and quite possibility that I am having a mid-life crisis but let's have fun. I wonder what I should start with first? I think I should start by playing in the mud puddles and playing with my two big goof ball dogs out in the rain. I am inviting who ever reads this come share this adventure with me and lets see if my theory about diets and workouts all bullshit and lets have fun again. I will even see about adding pics of this adventure as well.


Candi