As I begin to gather my thoughts I can only express myself as being really pissed off. I don't know how fair it is to be in my 40's and being diagnosed with being diabetic and being over weight. I can only imagine what people are thinking when they read that. Its no big deal just eat healthy, watch your carbs and workout. I wish it was that easy. For years I have worked out and watch what I eat. I hate going to the gym, I hate to tell people I'm sorry I can't eat that sweet I'm still trying to drop that extra 20 pounds that I have been carrying around for the past three years. I have switched my diet and my family is very supportive but my depression and anxiety just has increased as my waist line increases. I am saying I'm done with it all..... I'm going to ditch the gym and if I want a cookie (not the whole bag) then dammit I'm going to eat a cookie. I want to have fun again like I did when I was kid and played outside. I never worried about my weight cause I was having fun and played. So that is what I am going to do again. This is early for a New Year's resolution but here is mine. I am going to rediscover my child hood. I am not going to stress over every bite of food that I put in my mouth. I am going to start living again. I want to follow my dreams, I am not afraid to post my weight and height on here which is 181 pounds and 5'6" and I am 42 and quite possibility that I am having a mid-life crisis but let's have fun. I wonder what I should start with first? I think I should start by playing in the mud puddles and playing with my two big goof ball dogs out in the rain. I am inviting who ever reads this come share this adventure with me and lets see if my theory about diets and workouts all bullshit and lets have fun again. I will even see about adding pics of this adventure as well.
Candi
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